hello friday

what a way to start a day.

as some of you know, i manage the web team for an adult company. one of our sites is a “wet & messy” site, and we recently built a members pay site for it. well, today on UMD (the big site everyone goes to to see whats new in the genre), some loser posted that he had a complete copy of our paysite and was looking to “trade” it on CD for other paysites.

yes, this is theft.

so i spent the morning trying to untangle shit, cover our bases, etc. in reality, there isnt much i can do about it. people are jsut shitheads. but there are things we can do to cover our legal bases a bit more thoroughly.

i learn something new all the time with this job 🙂

however, to offset this crappy way to start a day, i baked some chocolate chocolate chip muffins for breakfast and they are *amazing*. again, i bless the Atkins line of low-carb foods. all hail healthy chocolate for breakfast!

1 more week until we apartment hunt in NOLA!

healthier eating milestones

so i just had another lovely moment this morning.

when i started my quest to change some of my lifestyle habits in july, i did all the requisite measuring, and one of those numbers was my body fat.

in july, my percentage body fat was 27%.

3 months later, it is now 22%.

hooray 🙂 3 months of careful eating, and there is 15 pounds and 5% body fat less of me to love 🙂

i have had some serious pangs of guilt for abandoning my blogger. i have been asking myself why, and i have come to the conclusion that i distrust my motives for writing here.

when i started my blogger, i enjoyed it immensely because the *spirit* of it was still that of a journal. a 1-way mirror where i placed my thoughts and people could peek inside if they chose. i wasn’t looking for feedback…i wasn’t looking for a sense of community.

and while i think that LJ is a great place for many people to journal and i enjoy reading my friend’s journals and posting responses, i find myself only writing here now. and that pains me. i know i don’t have it in me to write in 2 journals successfully…i am jsut too busy to introspect quite that much 🙂 so i am faced with the question of whether i am abandoning my blogger for this medium, or if i want to return to my blogger and reserve this account for…well, i don’t know what for. to read my friend’s journals, i guess 🙂

so i must ponder this. i miss my blogger, and my LJ affair really makes me feel like a cheating whore because it keeps me coming back for more. <sighs>

Pope John Paul II puts out more than Heffner

<ducks as the lightning strikes>

pope john paul II has canonized *464* people into saints since he became pope in 1978.

thats right.

464.

that is almost 20 saints a year.

he has made more SAINTS in the last 24 years that heffner has made PLAYMATES.

even better, he has declaired 168 more saints than his 17 predecesors combined.

this man is out of control!

if anyone is looking to have a dead relative canonized, now would be a good time to put in the request 😉

to view the long list, you can see it here: http://www.ca-catholics.net/saints/jpii-saints.htm

the joy of florida october and other random saturday thoughts

<belen sits at her desk blaring the kidney thieves, sipping cold water from a large glass drippnig with condensation as her skin gleans with a sheen of sweat>

some of my friends could probably add to that image some really sexy elements – perhaps psychocatblah is even pondering how to turn that image into a hot new photo shoot.


but the truth is so mundane it’s just rediculous. yes, florida is a sunny 90 degrees. and so is my apartment, thanks to a convenient weekend failure of my air conditioning.

but you know, with ceiling fans and some air circulation, its bearable. sticky, but bearable. no one is passing out from heat stroke. my boy is even still asleep with *flannel* sheets over him. i sweat just looking at him!

today has been quiet and lazy. i keep thinking i should work, but after reading lexicat‘s comment that xcart isn’t search engine friendly, i just cannot bear the stress of sitting down yet to accept that unfortunate problem and think about how i will have to solve it, since the site i am redesigning is a video commerce site that HAS to be search engine friendly.

blech.

so i made breakfast, and took root outside on the balcony where it is cooler than inside with the book that my sister recommended. and the cats and i have been communing there all morning.

i replanted their catnip plant that was begging for a bigger pot. i miss gardening.

i am in this weird state of content and restless. i can feel the move coming, and i have many hopes for the new space.

with a 2nd room, i hope to create a space where i will want to go and do yoga daily…mid-day just take time out and commune with myself. i want to sew again too. upon return to florida, i realized that this apartment just never had any zen for me. its a nice place. bigger than we had in olympia. but i just never seem to relax here. in bemerton, i felt like my days were *so* much more balanced…that when i woke up, i didn’t have the compulsive urge to immediately start working. and here i always have that. i really want to be aware of that in the move to NOLA and work to create a space that doesn’t resonate with that work-intensity.

the balcony is calling. 19 days til we go apt hunt in NOLA 🙂

my mornings

you know, i hope i never take my current situation for granted. its been a year and a half and i still wake up every day thankful, so i think there is little chance of it.

generally my morning consists of struggling out of bed somewhere between 8 and 9. i never pop out of bed. its a little known belen-fact that if left to my own devices, i would sleep away most of my life. i wish it were different. but no, not really.

i do all those hygiene things that make one feel human. then i turn on the cd player on random (which, by the way, just recently accepted the Lust Murder Box demo cd into its depths…and those *4* songs play on random SO often – an amazing feat considering it’s 100 cd’s – thats like *8000* songs! – supposedly on random! the cd player likes stephy’s music, i suppose!)

i check and reply to email that seems important. i read the New York Times headlines email i get 🙂 then i open my workout bible (8 minutes in the morning) and embark on today’s workout.

then i start the coffee brewing. this is something that has come to be a regular part of the morning. i never was much for coffee in the “out of a pot, traditional” sense, but now the smell of it brewing is jsut too delicious to pass up.

while the coffee maker is doing its job, i pull out stuff for breakfast…sometimes bacon & eggs, sometimes fake breakfast sausage & scones.

and then i ease into my day.

the mornings are my quiet time…david is still asleep, my kitties come and give me snuggles, no one is IM’ing me or asking for anything. (it helps that i am on east coast time!)

all in all, i love my mornings. i like that i work out a bit now (although the ambitious part of me longs to get up an hour earlier to do yoga or get on the stairmaster). i like that i cook good breakfasts. i like that even if i solve a crisis before breakfast, i still usually have time to do a few “me” things.

oh yah, and on a side note, GOD BLESS LOW CARB DIETS! i put on my favorite pair of jeans yesterday for the first time in over a year 🙂

scum of the internet

well, it has finally happened.

i checked my bank balance online today and noticed a $400 charge on my bank card.

from a company called cccomltd.com

and all their email addresses bounced.

and the company address on WHOIS is in the netherlands.

it would appear that i have had my first fraudulent charge.

the bank is investigating, and giving my money back until they can prove the charge is valid, which of course, it isn’t.

what a pain in my ass.

scum of the internet

well, it has finally happened.

i checked my bank balance online today and noticed a $400 charge on my bank card.

from a company called cccomltd.com

and all their email addresses bounced.

and the company address on WHOIS is in the netherlands.

it would appear that i have had my first fraudulent charge.

the bank is investigating, and giving my money back until they can prove the charge is valid, which of course, it isn’t.

what a pain in my ass.

the dirty old man within

it is no secret that i am indeed a dirty old man deep inside this late 20’s 5’4″ girlie body.

last night david and i went out to dinner for an early b-day celebration.

and i was soooooooooo excited 🙂

because we were headed to to HOOTERS for $6.99/lb snow crab legs!

yes my friends, now that i have learned to womanize, i enjoy those ex-drill team and cheerleaders very much. there is absolutely nothing bad about a room full of women whose lovely asses i can view as they walk off to place my order 🙂 and the cleavage is very pleasant too. she even came back every 10 minutes to top off my beer from the pitcher on our table.

mmmmmm…..thats what i call service 🙂

and the food was amazing, since i was not there for the requisite buffalo wings. snow crab is one of my favorite meals (and soooooo on my diet!) and i ate like there was no tomorrow.

hooray for beer, boobs and crab! (not “crabs”, as troy pointed out, is the kind that *usually* come with freely given boobs)