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Like everything, a journal is the reflection of a journey and its form morphs with time. This archive covers my blogging from 1999-2002.


The Blogger years. It started as I began travelling and wanted a more daily journal of my life to share with my friends.
oct sept aug july
june may april march
feb jan    
dec nov oct sept
aug july june may
april      

The leap from milky white pages to glowing white screen...the start of virtual exhibitionism.
apr.17: irate
apr.08: expired
apr.07: home
apr.06: free
mar.26: bound
feb.18: inked
jan.02: lost
jan.02: dream
sep.13: high
sep.02: wander
aug.30: touched
jul.24: glow
may.11: snap
feb.29: sex
jan.11: why
jan.01: the apocolypse
dec.06: mourning
nov.01: insanity
oct.13: caged
oct.13: surrender

baring a soul : february 2001

inked: 02.18.01
"One can never consent to creep when one feels an impulse to soar."

the time arrived to do it again.

the sun in the center of my back was a very spontaneous choice...no real thought went into its initial conception. there was no deliberation over what...where...when. there was just a why.

it was the beginning of a new life.

and those of you who visit belen.net see this inky imprint from my body throughout the site. this is because, without ever intending it, this became so much of a symbol to me.

it has become strength...warmth...life. it represents the balance i am slowly finding...the light i couldn't find in my past.

to my friends in austin, it was an integral part of the fabric of my being...they had never known me without it.

as i made plans to leave austin, i knew that i wanted to imprint the next life change...but carefully...with thought. the last change was stumbling into a new, beautiful, unexpected life. this change was born of knowledge, desire and strength. and i wanted this ink to reflect that.

6 months of careful thought...and i have new ink. i placed it on the back of my neck, so it communes with my sun, always behind me, urging me forward.

the moon is to remind me of cycles...good follows bad follows good...there is balance in this. the great joy and immense pain of the last 3 years keeps me anchored. the tides come and go...and i am always still here.

4 celtic runes, to remind me of why i am choosing this new path...what i want to learn from my life...what is important to me:

KENO aka Kenaz - An Opening
One's knowledge and capabilities, vision and guidance.
When you are in the darkness, an opening with light is the best and most gracious thing to have bestowed upon you. This is a great time for putting energies into new opportunities. Meditation revolves around seeing out of seemingly dark situations for there is a way out of every situation. Focus on what the action is and invest energies into breaking through.

MANNAZ - The Nature of Humankind (The Self)
The mind and intellectual objectivity.
The self and its place in the collective conscience of humanity is the recognition here. We are all part of each other, made of the same things, subject to similar experiences. This is a time of personal reflection, of what it is all about and what one person can really do for the community. Also, acknowledgment of the importance of every one self to the greater many.

WUNJO - Bliss and Glory
Your potential for enjoyment and her/his chances of being successful.
This can mean a lot of aspects of joy, but mainly it is the lack of need and lack of pain. It is the realization of what you have worked for and the temporary enjoyment of all your goods. Being in this mind frame sometimes induces a separate state of mind. It is a good meditation to realize where you are now and what you have and being satisfied to the point of bliss. Preparation for meditation is not needed when a tough task is completed.

RAIDO - Journeys
You ability to relate and connect; the amount of control you feel you can exert on your life.
There was always a time when a far traveled journey must be taken. Sometimes it is a spiritual journey and sometimes it is physical. Anxiety is always a factor, some positive and some negative. Journeys are a type of calling for a learning. Meditate on what is the right time and method of your particular journey. Identify if the higher forces are telling you that it is time to learn away from your home base. Most journeys are favorable in retrospect.

so perhaps you see a little better what i see in leaving austin, what i am carrying away from this place into new ones. this ink is the culmination of everyone who has touched me here and what they have taught me about myself.

thank you...you make beautiful imprints...

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so i am breaking the rules & putting a few pics of myself on the site. <sighs> donna jsut did such a beautiful job with the pics that i cant resist!