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Like everything, a journal is the reflection of a journey and its form morphs with time. This archive covers my blogging from 1999-2002.


The Blogger years. It started as I began travelling and wanted a more daily journal of my life to share with my friends.
oct sept aug july
june may april march
feb jan    
dec nov oct sept
aug july june may
april      

The leap from milky white pages to glowing white screen...the start of virtual exhibitionism.
apr.17: irate
apr.08: expired
apr.07: home
apr.06: free
mar.26: bound
feb.18: inked
jan.02: lost
jan.02: dream
sep.13: high
sep.02: wander
aug.30: touched
jul.24: glow
may.11: snap
feb.29: sex
jan.11: why
jan.01: the apocolypse
dec.06: mourning
nov.01: insanity
oct.13: caged
oct.13: surrender

freeing a soul : april 2001

4.30.2001

countdown

*squintblinkblinkblink* goodness the screen is bright this morning.

i try to remember how i survived monday mornings when i was at the club every sunday night. but then i am reminded yet again that i didnt have to crawl into work until 10 or 10:30, and christine would just laugh at me as i cured lack of sleep with breakfast tacos & red bull.

now 8:30am is oversleeping.

i have to say, that is the only drag to this west coast thing. christine is trapped in jury duty for 3 weeks, so one of our new york clients called me at *6:30am* my time.

good morning belen. here...suffer a little for your choice of new homes. still worth it, but it makes me thing the east coast is the better spot to be :)

24 hours until i can plug in my DSL and kick excite@home's sorry ass out of my life forever.

8 days until andre arrives!!!!

33 days until my baby sister graduates from high school. *gack* i remember graduating from high school & thinking "wow, when mel graduates, i'll be *26* with a job & a husband & a house & at least 1 kid."

*looks around at tiny apartment & sleeping gypsy boy in the other room* - hrm....just goes to show you that things don't always turn out the way you'd expect :) i think that's just fine...god help me if i had gotten all my wishes along the way!

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:: PROTEST OF THE DAY ::

today i protest the lack of letter-writing in the world! the ever-so-lovely cassandra & i had a long talk about that before i left, and to my delight, she wrote david & i a letter that arrived over the weekend. so naturally, i pulled out the lovely paper that all writers have stashed in a back desk drawer and began writing back. and many many pages later, david looked at me like i had 3 heads and said, "are you *still* writing cassandra?" and i chirped "yes!"

so it is my mission to spread the letter-writing joy. there is nothing better than a pretty letter in a mailbox to boost anyone's day :) care to join me in this archaic, yet charming form of communication?

posted by belen 8:52 AM

4.28.2001

i'm famous!

it has happened!

Time Warner Books has launched our site...www.ipublish.com

yes, *i* got to design this...can you believe it! we finished design in september, but it has been in back end production since then.

it is an interactive writer's community, in addition to being a place for the Time Warner Books editors to scout out new talent :)

go look...enjoy :)

*hophophophophophophop* i'm famous!

posted by belen 2:13 PM

4.26.2001

cracksmokers-R-us

sometimes *strains uder the weight if the worlds largest crackpipe* i feel it is necessary *sound of deep inhaling* to hit the crackpipe *cough-hack-choke-cough* in order to understand our clients and others associated with them.

i don't mean the poor defenseless ignorant masses who are new this this internet & website thing that dont know any better.

*i* mean the people that masquerade as internet professionals...the ones who prey on these ignorant little people.

i am beginning to believe that 75% of the folks employed in this industry have absolutely NO idea what the definition of the internet is, muchless the intricate details surrounding things like domains, ecommerce, marketing, or CODE.

and don't even get me started on design.

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:: PROTEST OF THE DAY ::

i protest the agressive & leachlike presence of Crackwhores in the lives of my friends. for those of you who are not familiar with my affectionate phrase:

Crackwhore (n.) - a woman who has absolutely no merit or worth, who attaches herself to unsuspecting males who feel the protective need to provide for her, defend her honor , & be at her beck and call. Oftentimes accompanied by a body-style that resembles a toothpick, with tiny clothes that hang off as they hang *on* to your sig other.

they vary of course, but what persists is that our friends seem to keep getting sucked in. c'mon...you've watched a few of *your* friends fall fall prey. it's when we all shake our heads, sigh & mutter to ourselves about "if i ever..."

of course there is the male version of this creature as well...The Worthless Bastard. unforunately women are not immune either.

so join me today is standing up and saying "FRIENDS, put DOWN the crackwhore! there is life out here! you just have to kick her WORTHLESS, scrawny ass out and return to us!"
posted by belen 1:30 PM

4.25.2001

survey says!

today is one of Those Days...i have an insurmountable amount chatterbox energy & david is starting to glare at me...so you get the overflow!

exciting bulletin!
the site that i designed for time warner with xtine when i first started working with her is about to go live :) *finally* after 7 months in back end production :) i will post the url as soon as it goes live on friday :)

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so, donna sent me the cutest pics of her that will be featured on www.twistedlens.com. if you havent seen them, you need to go take a look. if you dont know who donna is, then you need to go visit her site...www.charlottesometimes.com...you have been deprived!

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so its survey day...bob sent me a survey & i had to be That Person, and forward it to everyone :) so if you missed it, this was my response:

1. LIVING ARRANGEMENT?

me, my gypsy boyfriend whose soul has been squashed into having his name on a lease, my crotchity old cat Hobbes who is actually *playing* with his younger brother Zephyr, who thinks that our ittybitty apartment is great fun because his brother cant hide from him.

2. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING NOW?

actively reading Peirs Anothy's Incarnation series, Henry & June by Anais Nin, Myth series by Robert Asprin, Kingdom for Sale series by Terry Brooks

3. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?

winnie the pooh

4. FAVORITE BOARD GAME?

scrabble

5. FAVORITE MAGAZINE?

Perfect 10 :)

6a. FAVORITE SMELLS?

a storm rolling in, the smores candle Phil & Angie got me, dragons' blood

6b. LEAST FAVORITE SMELLS?

cat litter, cabbage cooking

7. FAVORITE SOUND?

the seashore

8. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?

being betrayed...or finding that you do not mean as much to the ones you love as they mean to you.

9. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU
WAKEUP IN THE MORNING?

do i *have* to get up this early?

10. FAVORITE COLOR?

deep bloody red

11. HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE?

3-ish

12. FUTURE CHILD'S NAME?

i refuse to think that far ahead...soon enough, i will hit 30 & be obsessed with thoughts of babies. iw ould rather stay away from that for now :)

13. WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN LIFE?

loving.

14. FAVORITE FOODS?

sushi, feta cheese dip, david's homemade pizza

15. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA?

both.

16. YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST?

not particularly

17. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?

does david count?

18. STORMS - COOL OR SCARY?

cool...esp in the morning when you can snuggle down into bed & drift in & out of sleep

19.WHAT TYPE WAS YOUR FIRST CAR?

a blue 1984 toyota tercel...i painted the top black with yellow polka dots that i made into things like daisies, fish, happy faces, balloons etc. it was a very happy car :)

20. IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON DEAD OR ALIVE?

hrm...not enough time to ponder that...

21. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?

long island ice tea

22. WHAT IS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN?

virgo

23. DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI?

no!

24. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB YOU WANTED WHAT WOULD IT
BE?

astronaut. definately.

25. IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOR?

purple...and blue

26. EVER BEEN IN LOVE?

i loved them all :) again & again & again sometimes i do think i am a guy

27. IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL?

half full

28. FAVORITE MOVIES:

i always hate this one. shallow graves, bound, and all the others that my brain cant ever remember on command

28a. FAVORITE MUSICIANS/GROUPS:

sarah mclaughlin, lorena mckennet (i cant spell), dead can dance, delerium, apoptygma berserk, kidney thieves, tori, erasure, & depeche mode

29. DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS?

mostly :) i have a few retarded fingers that dont cooperate (mostly the little ones)

30. WHAT'S UNDER YOUR BED?

i have removed that option...bed is now on the floor :) usually it was an angry cat that didnt want to be bathed or taken to the vet :)

31. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER?

i dont descrimiate

32. FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH?

gymnastics

33. SAY ONE NICE THING ABOUT THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU.

bob makes me wanna get nekked :)

34. PERSON YOU SENT THIS TO WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO
RESPOND?

my sister :)

35. PERSON YOU SENT THIS TO WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO
RESPOND?

david :)

so now you know a little more about me :)

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:: PROTEST OF THE DAY ::

Surveys! i protest people taking up precious minutes of others' days with the meaningless drivel found in these silly "forward to your friends" emails that random weirdos pass on as though they were gifts of gold. dont they know that people have better things to do with their free moments? WHERE DO THEY GET OFF MAKING PEOPLE WASTE THEIR...
*hangs head* i'll just go take off my placard now & slink back to my computer. today's protest has been cancelled due to errors made by the Protest Of The Day Speech Writers. some will be shot.
posted by belen 2:47 PM

4.24.2001

experimental kinda girl

alright ladies & gentlemen...

it was time. i want so much to expose myself to you...to touch you daily...

but the burden of process was too cumbersome, and now we try a new & exciting experiment:

BLOGGER

for you who are yet to be enlightened, it is a weblog. basicly, i need something to make this updating shit easier, or you, my little voyeurs, will not get the show you deserve. and of course, that would be a tragedy!

so, let's see if this little experiment works out for us

can blogger help me get even more naked for you?

new thing to look for:

the protest of the day.

i have noticed myself with a lot of things to personally protest these days. so dammit, i am just going to have at it.

(this is where you get to have the mental picture of me marching around naked in my apartment, covered only by the cardboard placard that hangs on my shoulders with the official belen.net protest of the day)
posted by belen 3:03 PM